Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@3:10 AM



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Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@12:11 AM



i miss you awak
i love you so much
if only i can turn back the time.
this will never happen.
how could you do this to me?
why didnt u tell me that u need time?
ive been supporting you awak.
i sacrifice so much for you.
i love you so much!
i treasure our love
i gave my whole heart to you
and now you leave me.
you leave me with this pieces of broken heart
and this pieces are missing you.
and god i really do miss u.
all that is left for me are memories,sweet memories of me and you
i want u back.
i want the old you.
maybe we are not fated to be together,for now.
i hope and i wish that we will be one day..
and u can bring me to the horizon..up in the sky,so we can watch the sunset together,holding our hands tight.
the hopes..the promises..memories.
i will never forget.
and till i die,i will love u..
my first love..i swear.
no one can replace u in my heart awak.
because this heart belongs to you sayang..

kite sayang awak...

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Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@5:20 AM



today is da the most unhappy day i ever had.

after malay dance practise,i waited for kak zakiah while she was having her o'level listening compre.i stood at one corner,as usual,alone.then thought about him again.i read the letter i wrote to him that wasnt even given a chance to send.same thing happened.memories came back.and i cried again.i cried so hard.i really dnt want this to happen.but it happened too fast.
i cant help it sometimes thinkin how stupid i am.

my fwen confiscated my letter that i wrote bout shamir.and today,his sister pass me that letter.after the arguement yesterday.i really dnt know wat is his motive to pass me back the letter.

i cant take it anymore.im too tired of helping so many people wen they cannot be bothered.im thankful enough,i still have frens.and i really appreciate that.im tired of crying.i dnt wanto waste my tears.it's no use anymore.

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Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@6:15 AM



it was the Musical night "the labryinth of dreams"

we have to performed 8 shows in 3 days.it was really tiring.but im gonna miss dancing there so much! it was taken place at the arts house.

we,the malay dancers were dancing the mystique dance.it's a contemp dance.we have to give that kind of angry and watever face and our make up was so nice and fierce.it was cool.and my hair was done by one hot instructor.omg!! he is so hot and handsome.hehe..whoops!

we looked so vogue.





















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Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@4:20 AM



today.i went to hakim's performance. they did well,but did not win.anyway it's ok.
suddenly my mood turn down after i saw her.its becoz i just dont understand why she is doing this to me.what have i done wrong til she looked as if it's all my fault.there are loads of questions still popping out in my head.just now i salam her.then she looked so pissed and as if im such a hatred to be seen.seriously what is my fault? i dnt know wat is happening.why she changed.she even told me that our friendship can last long.

seriously i dnt understand why people leave me without a reason.and leave me alone so miserable like that.i was just trying to give a helping hand but they just cant be bothered.
i was treated so harshly and unheartedly by some people.i was being so heart broken by smeone who i really love.who i put my whole heart to.in the end i lose him.and now i lose my bestfriend.who's next?there are more to cum.

i have to be patience in watever outcomes and take things calmly.but i have my limits.
gosh im so tired of having so much heart burns.i tried to hide all my feelings inside.i may look crazy,hyper,cheery..but no one knows exactly how fucking hurt my heart feels.

but im happy enough to have some frens and besties who still cares for me.my mom.my cousin.thank you so much for supporting me and being so caring.

hakim
THANK YOU MY DEAR BESTIE.
u nvr fail to bring a smile on my face.
u were always there for me.
u brighten up my day.
i love my bestfriend hakim.
he rocks! :)

korkor-ming zhe
thank you korkor
korkor love meimeiMEIMEI LOVE YOU MORE
u always wipe out the tears on my face
and my other uncles are so caring includin u.
love u!

penguinxx!
hey dude.
thanks for everything.
u always try to help me by giving so many advice and solutions.
and they really work.
especially wen i really get confused.
well im always confused.hehe

syura my lil patrick
u are the most idiotic bestfriend i ever had
since primary school dok.
hehe.
we nvr failed to share our problems
and u were my listening ear.
i love u!

erah and jujut
dear cousin,eventhough i find ur bf irritating.
i still love u guys.
coz u dada,will be the sunshine of my heart
u always help me
and give me a hug wen i need one.
love u

kawan2-yusri
u are the only one who understands my feelings
u were there for me too
take good care of ur gal
i know u are forcing urself
but dnt ever hurt her
thank you fwen2

THANK YOU GUYS! U GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.

well hopefully they will stay with me and nvr break did friendship
i dnt wanto lose them.
love you guys.






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Oh.Miss.Effa♥;@7:05 AM



me,awak,kak zakiah and hakim went to causeway point to watch the movie "jangan pandang belakang" the show is actually far from what i have expected or heard..tell u the truth..the movie was really stupid..it wasnt scary at all! the only thing that makes it scary was the sound effect which was giving loads of suspends..sorry i dont have any pictures that we took..

anyway..my first impression when going out with hakim,was that he was kinda weird..with his sleepy eyes and weird kind off hairstyle...but in the end i find him friendly and irritating wit his uncle uncle voice..but i think he and kak zakiah would make a matching couple...but too bad...they r just bestfriends...well i hope hakim will change his mind..

so...after that,we seperated la..me and awak walk walk together at causeway...it was kind of awkward la..bcos we dont have any mood at that time...but wen we sat at banquet,we had a little conversation..unfortnately that some conversation made me feel a lil hurt. and i cried la..sorry awak..

then we met kak zakiah and hakim in the cinema...damn we were seperated from the seats...hakim and kak zakiah sat far away from us...haiya...

after that stupid movie,awak got so mad becos i wore mini skirt...im sorry awak.i promise i wont wear it again...
den he went home..for the first time,he did not send me home but it was ok coz he had to do his project which i really dont know he had to hand in on monday...im dead..

so i went home wit kak zakiah la...haha..

i really love kak zakiah.i treat her as my sis now..she is always there for me wenever i nid a listening ear for my problems..wen i was having a humungous depression,she was the one who helped me and my sis gave me loads of advice too..i really appreaciate it sisters...u rock.muacks!

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